... hanging around my parents' house and looking at their vacation photos from NZ doesn't necessarily help with material desires (remember, I'm similar enough to them that some stuff they have or do really appeals to me).
I like "lagom" in theory; but when I combine having always been poor and having things out of reach for me which are accessible to others (oh boy, does that lead into my issues!); contrast of social messages that I should want all sorts of stuff *and* that I am a horrible greedy monster; and how the gentle, positive aspects of asceticism become beating myself up extremely easily; figuring out what "just enough" is becomes kinda convoluted. And it's definitely too convoluted for 3 AM, y'know?
It's time for Longing for a Combination of Not Especially Well-Explained Comforts!
Like for instance, it would be perfectly normal to want a relationship, D&D games, kink, more media about dinosaurs, regular therapy, more local exploration, kayaking, martial arts classes, participation in furry conventions, *or* crepes, right? Desire for ALL of them and more makes me feel like some sort of emotional black hole. Unfocused desire so vague it swaps between aspects of all of these things feels weirdly worse, but given how these things work, maybe everyone gets the equivalent?
I am so heavily amused by this: https://twitter.com/sarahjamielewis/status/1119653346120323072?s=21
Time for to sleep
oh yeah it's time for some JIZZ
Star Wars: A New Hope Soundtrack - 12. Cantina Band # 2 https://youtu.be/L-aUjrge0Zo via @YouTube
hmph should I sleep or should I fall asleep listening to audiobooks
hey free jazz is actually great though
Y'all I *highly* recommend checking out the EssenceOfThought youtube channel
Good job B
Astounding stories of astoundation
Okay but seriously the colors are unbelievably vivid on this
Watching Steven Universe the way Rebecca sugar intended: on a 14-inch rack-mounted broadcast video monitor
Does anybody else say good job to themselves after they're done masturbating
Did some stuff in #supercollider today. Tried to get the Ambisonic ToolKit running, but ubuntu's supercollider stack is a bit out of date.
I might end up having to compile the main components and plugins from scratch.
Good news: our house has a new tiny window! Bad news! It wasn't intentional!
Idea of the moment: a ✨plush✨ with a pull string. Pull the string and they get up and bee line to the nearest person for a flying hug. At which point the string runs out and they flop down on the hug-ee!
Spent most of today playing War Thunder with my new fav all transfem fireteam.
You girls were Awesome. <3
Guardian ape dead: 4th try. First time making it to the second phase. \o/